I have an assurance that God is with me. He could have let the time my mother and I get hit by a train while we sat on the tracks arguing about who was going to hold the ice cream cones. After we heard the loud, obtrusive sound of the conductor blowing his horn, there was just enough time for my mother to surge the gas peddle as the car rocked by the force of the train rushing behind.
I have an assurance that God is with me. One afternoon a dear friend and I were stuck in traffic in downtown Kalamazoo when an impatient driver soared out of a parking lot adjacent to our still vehicle doomed to hit on my side of the car. We braced ourselves for the hit. Miraculously we both saw the truck lift and stop inches from my right shoulder. The driver backed his truck from whence he came with a horrified look that equaled our own.
I have an assurance that God is with me. Thinking that I found true love in a man with false intentions I could have walked the streets of Chicago selling my body headed for regret and possible death. Prostitution was not Papa’s plan!
Why am I not held hostage to the residue of bad decisions, failed relationships and immature idiosyncracies?
I know that an indwelling invisible power lives within me. I have ignored it and denied its commanding voice many times. Times that quickly could become “I should have,” “I could have,” or “I wish I had.” No matter what foolishness I succumbed to divine power waited for me to use it.
I’ve accomplished trophies for dog training, traveled to other countries, earned two academic degrees, enjoyed entrepreneurship, just to name a few attempts toward success.
I can’t strive and push anymore. The world and its allure advertise many possibilities as avenues for achievement, but nothing I do has quieted the demand calling me to surrender. My accomplishing one more great idea will not satisfy the passion that haunts my soul.
I have lived 6 1/2 decades. I have no more steam to be the greatest, the best, or the most improved. What I do have the passion for is listening and waiting for divine direction. It is a much slower process to surrender, let go and follow divine power. I have peace and happiness in my inner being because in this inmost place I am not alone. I want the living water that Jesus told a woman she could have, and she had five husbands!. I want the peace that transcends all my understanding. I want to trust my Papa Divine and acknowledge him in everything I do and say and think. Papa promises to give me the desires of my heart if I seek him first.
I’m giving up control and letting go of what I want. No more resisting, rebelling, I will not take one step backward!
I hear the voice saying. . .
My Child, I am dwelling with you.
You won’t discover My power or complete your calling if you try and build your life on your accomplishments. I have handpicked you to refresh a world that is wandering around in a dry and thirsty land. I will show you how to bring them living water and lead them to the real love.
Oh, friends of mine, is your cup half full or is it empty? Whatever it is, let’s raise them up and walk with a purpose!
Peace.